Do You Know How to Fly? 8.30.17


CHAPTER 1

Birth of an Evil Seed

Delmer Smith III was born July 19, 1971 in Detroit, Michigan to a couple who are now both deceased. He is one of multiple children from this mixed-race union. His mother, Velma Shelton, was white and his father was black. Delmer is light skinned, light enough to pass for being white in many circumstances. The mixed bloodlines will provoke identification confusion in the future when, as an adult, he is the suspect in several crimes.

He is given his father’s name and the family happily pronounces him to be Delmer the 3rd. His name, and that of his father, is a variant of Delmar (also used within the family) and comes from Spanish and “Old” French. It means “of the sea.” The choice is, perhaps prophetic in an eerie way.

The sea is a mercurial place. It can be calm, inviting, sublime, and soft at one point in time and then, with little if any warning, it will become treacherous, evil, violent, destructive, a merciless killer. And, so it was to be with Delmer the 3rd. As it is for the sea, he also will be a mystery to those he meets in life. Michele Quinones, his onetime fiancé, told me as she was trying to make sense of their relationship, “He was the man who didn’t exist.”

She went on to say to me, “I recall one day we were fishing and he was standing off behind me and I looked up at him. He didn’t know I was watching him. What I saw was a man stripped for a moment of what or who he was. He was so soft standing there, a little boy. So strange,” she smiled as she thought back. “He was so at peace. And yet, there is this other Delmer that I did not know or even suspect might exist. I saw him for what he might have been, what he could have been, not as he was.”  TO BE CONTINUED

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ANNA BAYES – Bisexuality


Well……not sure about this site, but in the belief of differences of opinion and the fact that our brains are not all the same I have to report that Anna Bayes has an interesting blog. Now, please understand that I am not endorsing or supporting some of  her content, but I believe that her being different is something that is based on natural issues that I do not understand and will not criticize.

So, should you be interested in what she has to say about being bi-sexual then I have placed her link below for you to contact her. I think her blog is well written and informative. She has some things posted that were written by other writers and they also are interesting and well written. I found them to be educational and informative particularly when it comes to a young person exploring their sexuality which is a personal and private issue. For them to openly write about it, I think, is refreshing. There was nothing that I found that was written with the desire to offend. Had that been the case I wouldn’t waste my time writing this and placing her link on my page.

Bottom line, go and look and read and I think you will come away with a better understanding of sexuality and, maybe, even yourself. I know I did.

http://annabayes.wordpress.com/about/

Musical Wishes


Musical Wishes recently set up to follow my blog and I just now peeked in at her site. I found it interesting. I tend to disagree with some of what she writes, but I believe she has the right to think as she does, to be who she is.

You may like her. She can be found at: http://musicalwishesblog.wordpress.com/about/

Number 5 and the end of the series on manhood.


Okay, I admit that number 3 was a bit over the top. What I was attempting to do was draw out the fact that we are sexual creations and that we cannot rule that out in a definition. My problem is I have yet to be able to identify or develop a working definition and that is because I think it is impossible to do so. What one person may determine something to be does not mean it will be the same to another. So, why bother. Hmmm. I don’t know. Perhaps it is simply a desire to classify a commonality which will not be attainable. Maybe the answer lies in how each of us thinks and behaves. That is the point that I am attempting to get to by simply writing thoughts and not to shock or to cause anyone to be upset.  Unfortunately my eagerness to draw everyone out into a conversation with number 3 actually made myself appear in a negative light. Number three was a set up to draw conversation but it did not work. Experiments sometimes fail and that did. So, I am coming to the conclusion that I will not be able to come up with a definition and to return to my prior comments that is okay. What I have learned from this adventure is that what we define ourselves as being is what is important. What someone else thinks about us is really none of our business.

Number three in my wandering thoughts.


3. Sometimes our genitals get in the way.

I’ve come to believe that our genitals get in the way. Yes. Think about it for a second. We are a sexual creation. I think about sex. Do you think about sex? Hell yes you think about sex.

I can fieldstrip a woman with my mind in less than a second! Impressive, yes?

I wonder about her nooks and curves, her tastes, scents, her softness, moistness. Yep, I’m curious about her from head to toe and think about places I’d like to go and visit.  And don’t tell me you don’t either if you are man, well….there are some men who prefer men but I prefer women. I like the mystique. The wonder of it all.  Yep. It’s a wonderful thing, a woman.

And you know, sometimes I wonder what is going on in her head when she looks at me. Good lord, is she fieldstripping me too?

 

What is a Man?


What is a Man?

Number One in a series

This is a question I’ve often entertained. Just what is a man? I mean to say, how do you identify or define what a man is? We are flesh and blood. Yes. I suppose you can say that. I suppose, also, that you can say we are made up of the same components that make up the earth for is it not true that all that we are physically comes from this planet? But what is the essence. What is the pure form of man, of maleness. And, ladies, please understand I am not leaving you out of my thoughts in terms of creation. I am trying to understand what being a man is. This is a personal quest, to understand, to come to some form of balance in my own mind of what a man is in terms of relationships and activities. Sexuality? Yes. But sexual preferences do not, I think, define what a man is. Nevertheless, it cannot be denied in terms of trying to understand what being a man is. So, the question is there. Care to respond?

What is a man?


This is a question I’ve often entertained. Just what is a man? I mean to say, how do you identify or define what a man is? We are flesh and blood. Yes. I suppose you can say that. I suppose, also, that you can say we are made up of the same components that make up the earth for is it not true that all that we are physically comes from this planet? But what is the essence. What is the pure form of man, of maleness. And, ladies, please understand I am not leaving you out of my thoughts in terms of creation. I am trying to understand what being a man is. This is a personal quest, to understand, to come to some form of balance in my own mind of what a man is in terms of relationships and activities. Sexuality? Yes. But sexual preferences do not, I think, define what a man is. Nevertheless, it cannot be denied in terms of trying to understand what being a man is. So, the question is there. Care to respond?